Integration

Whole

Many definitions of Spirituality
use the word
Integration,
becoming Whole.

My understanding
of becoming whole
was limited and inadequate,
focusing on achieving
a balance
as with
body and soul,
internal and external,
mind and heart.

I am learning
Integration is not simply about
achieving a balance,
but truly about
making all things about me
ONE.

Though this may be a lifelong process
requiring steps I do not yet know
and may not understand,
some fruits of becoming One
are already being revealed to me.

In moving beyond
a critical balance of mind and heart,
achieved only late in my life,
to making them One,
my mind is enriched, more open, accepting, flexible,
and my heart is enriched, more specific, more intelligent.

In moving beyond a simple respect for Creation
to Being One with Creation,
my whole perspective in life changes.

I now see that
my Spiritual Growth entails Integration entails
Being in Love,
Making All Things One.


One More Step

Not an arrival; Just a Step

For much of my life,
I was dominated by my mind,
by my left brain.

It served me well
in surviving, helping to raise a family,
and succeeding in commerce.

Upon Retirement,
I took great joy
in growing my Spirituality,
my feminine side,
my right brain.

As Jesus’ parables taught,
I got out of my mind
and moved into my Heart.

But I learned
I could not rest there,
as my growth in the Divine
was not merely a matter
of balancing mind and heart,
left and right brain,
as rewarding and necessary as that might be,
but as Jesus preached,
making body and soul One,
making what is outside inside, what is inside outside,
making what is above below, what is below above,
making All things One,
making my mind and my heart One.

I am now learning
that the process of making my mind and my heart One,
my mind is less dogmatic and more open, accepting, and flexible
with my heart more intelligent, clear, and precise.

I am a unique Beloved Creature of the Creator
and becoming One,
becoming Whole
allows me to fully become
A Being in Love,
connecting with God,
BEING-in-Love.


Reality

To find the real world
I cannot simply observe and measure
what is outside me,
but to discover within
my deepest self,
True Self.

That us why the pat answers
offered us by institutionalized religions
just don't work.

The mystery
where I reside
where I am present
to my own self
and everyone else
is not a visible, objective, determined structure
with fixed rules, laws, and demands,
but
a living, self-creating mystery,
of which I uniquely am a part.

 Institutional pat answers
insist on showing creation
apart and other than me,
alienating me 
from myself
and from Others.

As suggested by many Spiritual Leaders,
I choose to Live the Questions
rather than seeking security
in shiny pat answers
offering some reward,
but only in the next life.




Time for an Equal Expression of the Divine


The Divine Feminine

buried alive for millennia
with undiminished potency
is rising from the shadows
radiating into every arena
of human experience.

Not simply as an alternative
to a masculine hierarchical model of holiness
but as an Equal Expression
of the ineffable,
the Divine Feminine
is about Embodiment
and
Immanence (not transcendence)
and
Incarnational Spirituality.

The Divine Feminine
is the felt experience of the Sacred
in Nature,
in Relationships,
in Community,
in Peace and Justice,
in Art,
in Love.

Rather than vertical ascension
up and out of the world,
the Sacred Feminine
celebrates the body
and its Interdependence
with all things.

The Divine Feminine
wields not a sword,
but rather
Compassion
needed now
more than ever.

Contemplation is Not . . .


In Contemplation
I find
not enjoyment,
not pleasure,
not happiness,
not peace,
but
a transcendent experience
of reality and truth,
Being in Love.

In Contemplation
I find
not gratification,
not rest,
but
Awareness,
Creativity,
and Freedom.

I have found that
Contemplation
is not some sleepy, suave, restful
embrace of Being
in a dark generalized contentment,
not something general and abstract,
but something concrete and particular
like a Divine piercing of  my darkness.

In Contemplation,
I seem to awaken to the Divine within me
becoming One with
BEING-in-Love
by
Being in Love.


Doubt

I Doubt, Therefore I Am

For so much of my life,
I rued Doubt
as a sign of unfaithfulness.

I now realize
that Doubt is the entry way
to certitude,
not my personal certitude,
but God’s
within me.

Given that the ultimate reality
is God
dwelling in me,
I am not justified
by any action of my own,
but called by God,
by the voice of Ultimate BEING,
to pierce through
the irrelevance of my ego
to find relevance
in God.

I had to learn that
relevance in God
is not something I can grasp
or possess,
only something I can receive
as Gift.

My life, thus,
must be
OPEN
to Gift,
from God
and from Others.